As you all probably know, I am not one to freely express my thoughts or emotions. However, after reading the recent posts on the class blog, something told me to write this down. Boon Pin has already written down some of the uncomfortable truths of our class, and JC life as a whole. As such, I shall not post on a sombre note.


Before JC life, you would probably call me an extremely introverted person. Much more introverted than now, at the very least. I usually spent my time in a combination of studying and gaming, sometimes meeting up with primary school classmates or the rare occasion of class outings. But that was basically it.


Now, such a lifestyle seems so remote to me. I am one who builds defenses,  constantly (or overly) cautious of others, and it takes a long time for me to build trust in other people. However, after casting my thoughts on my JC life, I have realised that I actually trust most, if not all, people in our class. Unknowingly, as the end of JC life draws near, and looking back at the end of secondary school, I am a different person than I was before.


Ironically, as Boon Pin mentioned, the events which bonded our class together were not JTS, STJ, nor were they GEMS or class outings. The events were such that we were separated from our usual group of friends, such as PE (captain's ball), various group assignments and Project Work. Yes, project work. It was one of the subjects we abhorred, and even Boon Pin said cynically "PW is my favourite subject" repeatedly over Year 1 (although this changed to GP in Year 2). However, looking back, I have enjoyed the experience of working with different combinations of classmates. No matter what the combination, I have always found that we work well together to somehow finish the job. Is this not evidence of our ability to laugh and work together? Perhaps Boon Pin would say otherwise, but I believe that we are, at the very least, able to "co-exist" effectively in the class. Not because we liked one another from the start, but because it was a necessity to work together to produce results. And that is what is common between camps, captain's ball, and PW, and that is what brought us together.


On the "last day" of school, I could tell that the atmosphere was tense to some extent in our class, for instance the sudden urge to take pictures with the teachers together as a class, however other than that, it was just like any other day. But what's wrong with that? To live the last day as a class together just like any other normal school day - I believe that other classes were unable to do that. The sense of familiarity of the usual tutorials, lectures and whatnot, and even the fact that the queue at the canteen was just as long... Such ordinary, daily happenings are just as significant if we pause a moment to think about the stuff we have been doing over the past 1.5 years. But that's not the point. The point is that, even when our time is over, we remember our class not because of the last day of school, but because of all the fun (or otherwise) stuff we have done together on a daily basis. As such, to continue moving on as usual, even on the last day of school, felt comfortable to me. For now, I guess we should focus on the end result of why we came here: to do well in A levels. Pragmatic as it may seem, and contrary to belief, we still have a month after A levels to play captain's ball :). For now, whether we like it or not, our time together as a class is over for now, and neither tears nor strong emotions can change this fact, for now what our parents and teachers hope for us is to focus and work hard, and I'm sure that we all want to achieve what we set out to achieve. Group study sessions at the reading room or random classrooms can easily resolve our want to see classmates. Even today, I could see Yu Zheng consulting Ms. Claire for GP, Shimin and Sherry consulting Mr. Tan and Mr. Remedios respectively. How difficult can a class study session be?


To be frank, I immensely enjoyed my life in JC. Even though I may have seemed emotionless and blank most of the time, you can bet that I enjoyed the company of our class. From the start of Year 1, you could say that I was one of the few who actually felt, at the time, happier in my new class than our orientation groups. Maybe it's just me, but at the very least I feel bonded to our class, and I'm thankful for the fact that stuff like PE lessons, PW, and even VBC has brought me closer to fellow classmates. Even if we go our separate ways, we have a shared memory as a class, and for that it is enough for me to remember those happy times we spent. It doesn't matter whether we spent some of our time in our cliques, or whether there were awkward moments at times. Although I accept the fact that we could have done better as a class, perhaps with more PE lessons like the recent ones, I can feel the general attachment within the class. I would probably use a model of chemistry to describe this. Take an example of a compound with numerous different atoms(e.g. alloy of aluminium or some metal). Granted, some atoms will innately be more attached to each other, but the compound generally stays strong together. That is my impression of our class, and thanks guys (and gals) for all those memories.


In essence... Nah, just kidding. I'm sure you can come to your own conclusion. (:


-yichen


P.S. Why do people post anonymously? I don't see the point -.-